Accountability Partners...I'm Promoting Y'all

I will get into my personal life eventually...but not yet. Instead I am officially upgrading y'all to my betterment partners. I don't exactly know what I truly need but putting my goals out there in the world for October feels right.

Goals:

1. Stop picking at my fingers

   • I have had the bad habit of picking at my skin and hair since I was a small child and I have been told that it causes those who love me some pain knowing that I am in pain. It doesn't even hurt me now, but I want to change for the better this month. I am going to replace the bad habit with something more positive. When I want to pick, I am going to do 5 squats. When I actually pick, I will do 10 squats.

2. Work-Life Balance

   • Since I am having to rediscover who I am right now, I want to give myself equally to both my students and who I am as an individual. I don't want to give everything to the school this month. I want to be me after 3:30 and that requires energy. To do this, I will dedicate 1 night a week to prepping for the upcoming week. What I don't get done is way less important than my mental health.

3. Be strong

   • I don't just mean physically (although with all the squats my booty is going to be popping), but mentally and emotionally. I need to recenter myself and re-love myself. I have been in such a dark place the past few days, and that isn't going to go away just because it is the first of the month. I have to be okay with the fact there are going to be awful moments where I am still hyperventilating with the ache in my heart and tears streaming down my face. But what I want is to not dwell. I am becoming a better me. I want to find good in myself again. I want to be able to carry not only my own struggles, but the burdens of those I love.

It is crazy that I now am starting to rely on this blog so much more, but I think I can really help myself to process writing my journey down especially through the next month. It is truly my attempts, so it won't all be perfect. I come back here to read what I have done and where I plan to go and it helps me push through. Thank you for holding me to what I say.

Love you big!

Adelaide